Sometimes I really don’t know wat happen to me and the ppl around me.
I think I was too kind and appeared to be too healthy all the time that ppl owiz neglected me that I can be sick also... or simply ppl don’t even bother.
I wish I was all alone, I don’t like to bother about ppl anymore.
Unfair…..Me really very disappointed….
When ppl sick, I can skip class to send them to see doctor without second thought.
When ppl sick, I was ordered to send ppl back home immediately, and was ordered to be back to school after that.
When I was having fever, I still have to go to school. I go to the clinic alone. Ppl around me even think I’m not sick.
When I was not feeling well that I feel like I want to get back home quickly, ppl said I was impatient!
Whenever I was not feeling well, ppl think I was in gloomy mood instead of having the thought of I was sick. For ppl, was sickness really that impossible to be occurred on me? Was I not given a right to?
When ones get bitten by the cats on a finger, ppl gets anxious and I was immediately ordered to become an ambulance driver to send the victim to clinic as soon as possible.
How come last time when I was bitten by a mad dog, nobody ever care me if I might get infected with mad dog disease??!! Still have to carry on with the work on my hands some more.
The day that really hurts me a lot came…. My stomach was pain like hell. I even thought it was an appendicitis attack that I could hardly stand straight. Ppl never care. I will forever remember I heard “don’t bother her, she was pain of gastric due to lunch skipped”. In fact, I haven’t had a breakfast too. If it were gastric pain, I think at least I deserve a tablet of painkiller or anything whatever ppl needs during gastric pain, instead, I got nothing. I bit my lips, I forced myself to walk, muttering the same phrases “u r not in pain, u can do it” all the way to hypnotize myself. But in fact, I nearly wanna break down and lie on the ground to cry already. It was raining, in pain still have to fetch my car alone to go and send ppl to cat catching.
For anyone else, they can be dismissed with any reasonable excuse; they don’t have to go for the cat catching session. For even some ppl, they don’t even have to inform that they were not coming. For me, nobody ever bother. I was straightaway put into the list of MUST GO. What happen? Don’t I have a choice? Not even when I need to have a good rest? I was reluctant to tell I was in great pain, for me afraid cat catching might have problem of short of man power, most importantly, short of transport. I have to send ppl and stuff. Mum would have blamed me for being so foolish. I would have quit if it were not all for the sake of the animals. I swear I will do everything for animals, never HUMAN forever ever, never!!!
Nobody ever notice that I was actually driving with my body bowed? Nobody ever notice I was walking with sudden hunched back? Or maybe I should have participated in a star search contest since I am so good in covering my face of sickness, acting so well.
I was lucky it was not an appendicitis attack that night. Nobody would send me to the hospital anyway. I was lucky that the pain gone by itself out of my stubbornness.
Mum, thanks for giving birth to such a healthy and tough gal like me. I’m lucky enough to go through pain and sick and stay alive until today because of u.
